I've been thinking about a lot of things lately.
I've seen a lot of people in love and I'm real happy for them.
I've seen their passion and the connection they have with each other.
I've seen the warmth feeling and the strong love they feel for each other.
It's the most precious thing in the entire world.
I know without love; there's nothing.
I know without your soul mate; there's nothing.
In life we face a lot of trials and hard choices.
We do things that we regret doing.
We do things that we're not proud of.
We wish we could turn back time and change the past.
I guess we all have to move forward with our life.
We should never look back on what might have been.
We should just look to what's in front of us and work on it.
We should always believe in ourselves and try our best.
We should never let anyone bring us down.
We should always be who we are and never change.
I know there's a lot of people who are in love with a certain someone.
They're afraid of telling that person how they feel.
They're afraid of getting hurt if it doesn't turn out the way they hoped for.
You should always listen to your heart.
Don't spend the rest of your life waiting for it to happen.
Don't spend the rest of your life wondering what could have been.
No matter what happens in life... we should always have courage to admit our feelings.
If you truly love someone... who ever it is.
Don't wait until the last minute.
Life gives and takes away.
Any of us could die any minute or day.
We should always make each day count and live life to the fullest.
Don't spend the rest of your life wondering what could have been if you didn't tell that person how you felt.
We should be thankful for every second we live on this earth.
If you truly love someone... who ever it is.
Please tell them how you feel about them.
Don't wait until it's too late.
We don't want to regret never telling them.
You don't want to spend the rest of your life wondering what could have been.
Jordan.A
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Monday, 14 July 2008
Tuesday, 29 April 2008
Damnit!
I'm getting sick again. I hate winter. It's really one of the worst seasons of the year. Thank god I don't live in a city that has snow. I'll be dead if I did.
Jordan
Jordan
Sometimes
sometimes in life that certain something is worth fighting for.
sometimes in life we can get that certain something.
sometimes in life that certain something will leave you wondering:
what could have been if you didn't fight for it.
Monday, 28 April 2008
It's been a while
It's been a while since I've posted anything lately. It's been a crazy past few months but I keep moving forward. I've been caught with a virus for almost 3 weeks now. I haven't been able to go to lessons due to the fact I lost my voice from a terrible sore throat. I know that I'm falling behind on my vocal training; mind you a lot of things have been distracting me. Once I recover I'll be training and having more lessons to catch up.
It's been an interesting month for me. A lot of mixed emotions that I didn't want coming back. I don't like talking about myself... but I need to write down my thoughts. I've been feeling very melancholy these past few days. I barely see my friends anymore. I don't see my relatives anymore. It's just been real lonely. I know I have my friends online... but it's not the same for me. I just would like to have someone to be there for me... to hold me.
I know that singing is like weight-lifting: it takes time to build up your vocal cords. I just wish I could be ready to go out there and sing professionally. I just want to join my fellow birds and fly among them. I need to spread my wings and fly. I know it takes time. I know I have to be patient, but the time is killing me. I just feel like running away. I want to set myself free and be ready to live my dream. I just need to make it work.
Singing is my dream. It's my passion. It's my obsession. It's my life. I just hope it all works out for me. I pray to God every single night to help me. I know I have to do most of the work on my own; but I just need him to be with me to give me strength. I really do want this. It's all that's going for me right now. I know I have to work and fight hard for it. I'm prepared to do it. I just wish my vocals would be ready. I just have to work on my high/low notes and my pitch; other than that... my breathing technique has improved.
I know that the Entertainment Industry isn't easy... nothing in life is; but we got to keep the ball rolling. If we fall, we get up. We all have to face our darkest demons at some point, but an angel always shines through to us in the end. We just have to keep believing and having faith in our dreams. We should never give up hope... no matter how bad things get. As I always say: the soul of life is just a song and everything goes on along. There's no right beat. We can't go back again.
I guess it's one of those days, right?
As the saying goes...
"Great things come to those who wait."
I just hope that "wait" is worth it in the end.
Jordan
It's been an interesting month for me. A lot of mixed emotions that I didn't want coming back. I don't like talking about myself... but I need to write down my thoughts. I've been feeling very melancholy these past few days. I barely see my friends anymore. I don't see my relatives anymore. It's just been real lonely. I know I have my friends online... but it's not the same for me. I just would like to have someone to be there for me... to hold me.
I know that singing is like weight-lifting: it takes time to build up your vocal cords. I just wish I could be ready to go out there and sing professionally. I just want to join my fellow birds and fly among them. I need to spread my wings and fly. I know it takes time. I know I have to be patient, but the time is killing me. I just feel like running away. I want to set myself free and be ready to live my dream. I just need to make it work.
Singing is my dream. It's my passion. It's my obsession. It's my life. I just hope it all works out for me. I pray to God every single night to help me. I know I have to do most of the work on my own; but I just need him to be with me to give me strength. I really do want this. It's all that's going for me right now. I know I have to work and fight hard for it. I'm prepared to do it. I just wish my vocals would be ready. I just have to work on my high/low notes and my pitch; other than that... my breathing technique has improved.
I know that the Entertainment Industry isn't easy... nothing in life is; but we got to keep the ball rolling. If we fall, we get up. We all have to face our darkest demons at some point, but an angel always shines through to us in the end. We just have to keep believing and having faith in our dreams. We should never give up hope... no matter how bad things get. As I always say: the soul of life is just a song and everything goes on along. There's no right beat. We can't go back again.
I guess it's one of those days, right?
As the saying goes...
"Great things come to those who wait."
I just hope that "wait" is worth it in the end.
Jordan
Sunday, 2 March 2008
Where do I belong? Who am I?
"Where do I belong?" is the question that wanders through our hearts and minds. Sometimes we feel out of place. Sometimes we feel like we don't belong. Sometimes we don't feel right with ourselves. We want to belong, somewhere, where we can be who we are, who we were meant to be. Each time we try and speak out, it feels as though no one can hear us. We pray for an answer. We dream how life could be. We wonder if we'll end up happy. We hope that we'll spread our wings and be who we were meant to be.
Deep inside, we feel trapped, as though we can't escape the jail we've been imprisoned in. We want to break through the bars that's been keeping us trapped. We just want to runaway, before we lose our mind. We want to be free. We want to be out of the darkness and into the light. Just want to be far away. Some place that we can begin a new life and turn our dream into reality. We want to be independent. We want to be successful. And complete our destiny, which, is yet to be written.
We feel scared. We're afraid of the consequences that may lay ahead of us. We're afraid of failure. We're afraid of being alone. Sometimes we feel afraid of coming out of our shell because the world might view us differently. Others may not accept us for who we are. Sometimes, we just have to face it through the storm, face our darkest demons, because in the end, an angel always shines through to us. The light will lead our hearts to our true selves.
We just want to leave the nest. We just want to spread our wings and fly. We'll do whatever it takes to reach the sky. We have to sacrifice the things we love to accomplish what we want or be who we want to be with. We all have to take risks. We just have to work and fight extremely hard. We all have to make a change in our life. We just have to stay true to ourselves. No matter what we go through in life, we have to have faith and believe in ourselves.
Sometimes we ask ourselves, "Who am I?", and pray for answer. Sometimes we don't get an answer. Deep in your heart. Deep in your soul. That answer is located within yourself. Sometimes we hide from our true identity, because we're afraid of being hurt, because we're not ready to accept it, yet. We run and hide. We feel lost. We turn for help and never get it. We pretend to be something we're not to please others, to protect ourself from the reality. But, in the end, will it be worth it?
We change our personalities, we change our identity, we hide from our self to fit into society. Yet, we don't realize the damage it's doing to us. It hurts. Our heart aches. Our minds wander through a million thoughts. It hurts us, knowing, that everything we built around us, was a lie. It's not who we were meant to be. It's not what our destiny had planned for us. We choose to make our destiny. We choose how we live our life. But, it comes at a price: your sanity.
We should never hide in our shell. We should never hide who we are. We should never hide our true identity. Because, sooner or later, we will be revealed. There will be a point in life, where we won't be able to handle it, and we would crack. We'll do something that we'll regret. Something we wished we did a long time ago: be true to ourselves from the begining. We just have to to be strong in these cases. We have to face it as it comes. We just have to show the world: that we don't care what they think. We are who we were born to be.
You should always be who you are. You should always be who you were born to be. Even in today, society can be a total mess, you should always stay true to yourself. We should not care what others think of us. We were born into this world as individuals. We are all unique. We are who we are. The soul of life is just a song and everything goes on along. There's no right beat. We should never look back. We just have to keep looking forward. We got to keep the ball rolling. No matter how long it takes.
We all want to be where we belong. We all want to be something. You have to work and fight extremely hard to do that. Sacrifices will be made. As long as we stay true to yourself, it will be worth it. Because God will bless you. He will open so many doors for you. And life will treat you with respect and dignity. Being who you are, makes us what we are today...
Unique
Jordan
Deep inside, we feel trapped, as though we can't escape the jail we've been imprisoned in. We want to break through the bars that's been keeping us trapped. We just want to runaway, before we lose our mind. We want to be free. We want to be out of the darkness and into the light. Just want to be far away. Some place that we can begin a new life and turn our dream into reality. We want to be independent. We want to be successful. And complete our destiny, which, is yet to be written.
We feel scared. We're afraid of the consequences that may lay ahead of us. We're afraid of failure. We're afraid of being alone. Sometimes we feel afraid of coming out of our shell because the world might view us differently. Others may not accept us for who we are. Sometimes, we just have to face it through the storm, face our darkest demons, because in the end, an angel always shines through to us. The light will lead our hearts to our true selves.
We just want to leave the nest. We just want to spread our wings and fly. We'll do whatever it takes to reach the sky. We have to sacrifice the things we love to accomplish what we want or be who we want to be with. We all have to take risks. We just have to work and fight extremely hard. We all have to make a change in our life. We just have to stay true to ourselves. No matter what we go through in life, we have to have faith and believe in ourselves.
Sometimes we ask ourselves, "Who am I?", and pray for answer. Sometimes we don't get an answer. Deep in your heart. Deep in your soul. That answer is located within yourself. Sometimes we hide from our true identity, because we're afraid of being hurt, because we're not ready to accept it, yet. We run and hide. We feel lost. We turn for help and never get it. We pretend to be something we're not to please others, to protect ourself from the reality. But, in the end, will it be worth it?
We change our personalities, we change our identity, we hide from our self to fit into society. Yet, we don't realize the damage it's doing to us. It hurts. Our heart aches. Our minds wander through a million thoughts. It hurts us, knowing, that everything we built around us, was a lie. It's not who we were meant to be. It's not what our destiny had planned for us. We choose to make our destiny. We choose how we live our life. But, it comes at a price: your sanity.
We should never hide in our shell. We should never hide who we are. We should never hide our true identity. Because, sooner or later, we will be revealed. There will be a point in life, where we won't be able to handle it, and we would crack. We'll do something that we'll regret. Something we wished we did a long time ago: be true to ourselves from the begining. We just have to to be strong in these cases. We have to face it as it comes. We just have to show the world: that we don't care what they think. We are who we were born to be.
You should always be who you are. You should always be who you were born to be. Even in today, society can be a total mess, you should always stay true to yourself. We should not care what others think of us. We were born into this world as individuals. We are all unique. We are who we are. The soul of life is just a song and everything goes on along. There's no right beat. We should never look back. We just have to keep looking forward. We got to keep the ball rolling. No matter how long it takes.
We all want to be where we belong. We all want to be something. You have to work and fight extremely hard to do that. Sacrifices will be made. As long as we stay true to yourself, it will be worth it. Because God will bless you. He will open so many doors for you. And life will treat you with respect and dignity. Being who you are, makes us what we are today...
Unique
Jordan
Wednesday, 20 February 2008
20 1/2 Months...?
As I sit here, in front of the computer, typing this up, I begin to wonder about the day I leave for overseas. I've been planning about this for a very long time. I've just never took up the courage and actually take action, for once. I've set the date for 20 1/2 months to prepare myself for the move to Toronto, Canada, God willing. I guess you're wondering: what is he babbling about?
I'll tell you...
On January 28th, 2008, I've decided that enough was enough. I was sick and tired of hiding in my shell and not taking action for what I believed in. I've always had an interest in the Entertainment Industry. I loved it. I've always wanted to be a successful singer for all the right reasons. I just never took any action about it. But, I have. As I've pointed out in my 2nd blog:
Do, Re, Mi, Fa, So, La, Ti
It's what I really want to do.
I've realized something: if you want something real bad in life, you have to be prepared to fight and work extremely hard for it. No matter what we sacrifice in life, the results will be worth it. If we want to achieve something in life, no matter what it is, we just have to believe in ourself and have faith by doing it for all the right reasons. Sometimes, in order to get what we want, we have to leave the nest and spread our wings. We have to leave our old life behind and begin the new, but always staying true to what's important: yourself.
It's not going to be easy. It's going to take time. It's going to take strength and courage. It's going to take a lot of hard work and sacrifices to get to where we want in life. I've applied for 2 jobs so far, I'm just waiting for them to reply back. I'll be saving up as much as I can. Get as many shifts as possible and prepare to work my ass off like a whore on crack! I'll be applying for an American/Canadian VISA, thank god I have a clean record. Oh, I forgot, I'll be living in Toronto for a few months, until I get on my feet, and when everything is going according to plan, with me slowly getting somewhere, I'll be moving to Los Angeles, California.
I'll be practicing my singing, I'll try working on the techniques to improve, I'll try taking more lessons each day. I just need this to work. I have a good voice, I'm not amazing or horrible, I'm just good. I just need to work on my breathing/tone techniques. If I want this to happen, I've got to take action. Once my voice has improved, to the level that's satisfying, I'll record a few demos and open a music Myspace and a musician Youtube account. I won't leave Sydney, just yet. I'll give Australia a shot first. If nothing happens for me here, I'll move overseas.
I know, once I'm there, I'll need to find an apartment, I'll need to find a job. I need to work as much as I can, until I can get on my feet. I know it won't be easy. It's a whole new world out there. It will take time for me to adjust to it. I just need to have faith and be strong with this. It's what I really want. It's what I believe in. I know it won't be easy, but I just need to make this work. I need to make this happen. I need to turn this dream into reality.
I believe in God. I know that he will guide me to what's right. I know he will be there for me when I need him. I know that he will help me through this. I just need the strength and courage to work through this. I just need the support from all my family and friends. I don't care if no one supports me. I don't care if I just have a backpack and my ipod and all my savings to begin a new life overseas. Sacrifices need to be made in order to full-fill your dreams.
I never graduated from High School, because I left halfway through 2006. If I stayed at that school I would have not been here today. That's how bad it was for me there. I remember, while I was at school, I've always felt that I didn't belong. It never felt right for me. It wasn't what I was looking for in life. I'm not saying that everyone should leave school, education is very important to most of us. I just left because I had enough of all the crap and that I wanted to explore the world and figure out what I want in life. And now I have.
People have asked me, "why do you want to become a singer?", and here is my reason: I want to be the voice for those out there. I want to speak for them. I want to show them that there is more to life than ending it. I want them to follow their dreams, even when everything around you seems to fall apart, there's always hope. There's always a rainbow smiling through in the end. I want to show them no matter how much your heart is grieving and if you keep believing, the dream will come true.
I'm also going to fight for the person I'm deeply in love with. I'm not going to mention their name. But, I'm going to fight for that person. I just have to get them to notice me first. My feelings towards this person is different from the way the rest of the world views them. I don't care about their looks. I don't care about their body. I don't care about their status. I care about them for who they are and not what they are. I love that person so much. It's not lust. I know for sure it's not.
I just hope it's not too late. But, knowing what I know now: that person won't risk their career for a long time. I know that having this person in my life will make me the most happiest of all. I've realized why my previous relationships never worked out: because, someone out there was the one I was meant to be with. I just have to work and fight hard to be with them. It's like the story of Cinderella. She didn't sit around and wait for her Prince Charming. She went there to get him herself. She didn't need her Fairy Godmother's help. She just believed in herself and it came true. That's what I'm doing.
I don't really fall for people like this, but each time I look into their eyes I always see the saddness. And when they smile, their entire face lights up. I really do love this person so much. I consider them still human. They're just someone who turned their dream into a career. I admire them for it. I just hope soon enough that I will build a successful career as a singer. I might take up acting as well, never know. I really do believe in this. I really do want this. I just need the support of friends and family to help me through this. I just have to make it happen.
Sometimes in life, there's no time to lose. You got to catch your dreams, before they runaway. I just feel like running away, before I lose my mind. I just feel like leaving it all behind. I just need to set myself free and live my dream. I've realized that some people never take the time to try, but in reality: we all have to believe in ourselves and go for it. We have to remember, that the soul of life is just a song and everything goes on along. There's no right beat. We should never look back. We should just keep looking forward and catch and fulfill our dreams.
This comes to the conclusion. I'd like to thank you all for reading through this. I just hope you'll understand that this is what I truly want. It's what I believe in. I know I have to work extremely hard to get the career I want. I know I have to fight extremely hard to get this person to notice me and see how things go from there. I just have to make this happen. I just have to.
20 1/2 months to go...?
Jordan
I'll tell you...
On January 28th, 2008, I've decided that enough was enough. I was sick and tired of hiding in my shell and not taking action for what I believed in. I've always had an interest in the Entertainment Industry. I loved it. I've always wanted to be a successful singer for all the right reasons. I just never took any action about it. But, I have. As I've pointed out in my 2nd blog:
It's what I really want to do.
I've realized something: if you want something real bad in life, you have to be prepared to fight and work extremely hard for it. No matter what we sacrifice in life, the results will be worth it. If we want to achieve something in life, no matter what it is, we just have to believe in ourself and have faith by doing it for all the right reasons. Sometimes, in order to get what we want, we have to leave the nest and spread our wings. We have to leave our old life behind and begin the new, but always staying true to what's important: yourself.
It's not going to be easy. It's going to take time. It's going to take strength and courage. It's going to take a lot of hard work and sacrifices to get to where we want in life. I've applied for 2 jobs so far, I'm just waiting for them to reply back. I'll be saving up as much as I can. Get as many shifts as possible and prepare to work my ass off like a whore on crack! I'll be applying for an American/Canadian VISA, thank god I have a clean record. Oh, I forgot, I'll be living in Toronto for a few months, until I get on my feet, and when everything is going according to plan, with me slowly getting somewhere, I'll be moving to Los Angeles, California.
I'll be practicing my singing, I'll try working on the techniques to improve, I'll try taking more lessons each day. I just need this to work. I have a good voice, I'm not amazing or horrible, I'm just good. I just need to work on my breathing/tone techniques. If I want this to happen, I've got to take action. Once my voice has improved, to the level that's satisfying, I'll record a few demos and open a music Myspace and a musician Youtube account. I won't leave Sydney, just yet. I'll give Australia a shot first. If nothing happens for me here, I'll move overseas.
I know, once I'm there, I'll need to find an apartment, I'll need to find a job. I need to work as much as I can, until I can get on my feet. I know it won't be easy. It's a whole new world out there. It will take time for me to adjust to it. I just need to have faith and be strong with this. It's what I really want. It's what I believe in. I know it won't be easy, but I just need to make this work. I need to make this happen. I need to turn this dream into reality.
I believe in God. I know that he will guide me to what's right. I know he will be there for me when I need him. I know that he will help me through this. I just need the strength and courage to work through this. I just need the support from all my family and friends. I don't care if no one supports me. I don't care if I just have a backpack and my ipod and all my savings to begin a new life overseas. Sacrifices need to be made in order to full-fill your dreams.
I never graduated from High School, because I left halfway through 2006. If I stayed at that school I would have not been here today. That's how bad it was for me there. I remember, while I was at school, I've always felt that I didn't belong. It never felt right for me. It wasn't what I was looking for in life. I'm not saying that everyone should leave school, education is very important to most of us. I just left because I had enough of all the crap and that I wanted to explore the world and figure out what I want in life. And now I have.
People have asked me, "why do you want to become a singer?", and here is my reason: I want to be the voice for those out there. I want to speak for them. I want to show them that there is more to life than ending it. I want them to follow their dreams, even when everything around you seems to fall apart, there's always hope. There's always a rainbow smiling through in the end. I want to show them no matter how much your heart is grieving and if you keep believing, the dream will come true.
I'm also going to fight for the person I'm deeply in love with. I'm not going to mention their name. But, I'm going to fight for that person. I just have to get them to notice me first. My feelings towards this person is different from the way the rest of the world views them. I don't care about their looks. I don't care about their body. I don't care about their status. I care about them for who they are and not what they are. I love that person so much. It's not lust. I know for sure it's not.
I just hope it's not too late. But, knowing what I know now: that person won't risk their career for a long time. I know that having this person in my life will make me the most happiest of all. I've realized why my previous relationships never worked out: because, someone out there was the one I was meant to be with. I just have to work and fight hard to be with them. It's like the story of Cinderella. She didn't sit around and wait for her Prince Charming. She went there to get him herself. She didn't need her Fairy Godmother's help. She just believed in herself and it came true. That's what I'm doing.
I don't really fall for people like this, but each time I look into their eyes I always see the saddness. And when they smile, their entire face lights up. I really do love this person so much. I consider them still human. They're just someone who turned their dream into a career. I admire them for it. I just hope soon enough that I will build a successful career as a singer. I might take up acting as well, never know. I really do believe in this. I really do want this. I just need the support of friends and family to help me through this. I just have to make it happen.
Sometimes in life, there's no time to lose. You got to catch your dreams, before they runaway. I just feel like running away, before I lose my mind. I just feel like leaving it all behind. I just need to set myself free and live my dream. I've realized that some people never take the time to try, but in reality: we all have to believe in ourselves and go for it. We have to remember, that the soul of life is just a song and everything goes on along. There's no right beat. We should never look back. We should just keep looking forward and catch and fulfill our dreams.
This comes to the conclusion. I'd like to thank you all for reading through this. I just hope you'll understand that this is what I truly want. It's what I believe in. I know I have to work extremely hard to get the career I want. I know I have to fight extremely hard to get this person to notice me and see how things go from there. I just have to make this happen. I just have to.
20 1/2 months to go...?
Jordan
Tuesday, 19 February 2008
Could solo be the way to go?
"Am I crazy? Could it be maybe? Solo is the way to go?" is the question on most of people's minds. We all dream of a life that our Prince or Princess Charming will come and sweep us off our feet and live a Fairy Tale life. But, that life comes at a price: heartache.
I don't like being negative about love, but this is something that most people question and wonder about the reasons. We all want to have that someone special in our life. Someone who will be there for us in our darkest hours. Someone to love and care for you. Someone to make you feel so special and important to them. But, most importantly, someone who will accept us for who we are.
Love is such a powerful word. Do we mean it? Do we feel it? Can we live without it? I don't know. I've had my share of heartache in the past. I must admit that I was ready to give up on love. But, for once in my life, I was wrong. I was given one more chance. I love this person with all my heart. I see them for who they are. Something about them has cast a spell on me and I can't get them out of my mind and heart. As cliche as that sounds, it's true. I just have to work and fight hard to be with that person, get them to notice me.
Sometimes in life, we're lost without that certain someone. We are always in hiding from ourselves, until that special someone finds the real you inside. We sometimes turn for someone and they're not there, but with that person by your side, they'll always will be. Sometimes we give and they take, we make that one big mistake by giving them all from A to Z, in which it will cost us our very own hearts. Sometimes love can be a powerful feeling and sometimes love can be the most hurtful feeling.
After being through several relationships, I've realized that in life, love can always make you stronger. No matter how painful, no matter how hurtful, no matter how dark the situation is, love can make you into a stronger person. I know we have to be careful to who we give our full hearts to. I know we have to rely on ourselves for when things seem out of hand. Just face it until the storm passes.
Sometimes in life, love can take us high and take us low. It can colour you blue and turn your passion to red, until you feel like you've become indigo. But, love has that feeling of pain and happiness. We just have to stay true to ourselves and be strong as much as possible. Don't let anything destroy what you believe in, because as I've said: karma is a bitch, what goes around, comes around.
If you truly love someone, who ever it is, don't give up on them. Don't let them slip through your fingers. Do everything that's possible to be with them. Do what they do; try to communicate with them and be who you are. You must be prepared to work and fight hard for the long road ahead. Don't ever give up, even if it means just being friends with that person, it will still be better than nothing. It will make you realize how grateful you are to have that person in your life. Just believe and stay true to yourself.
Jordan
I don't like being negative about love, but this is something that most people question and wonder about the reasons. We all want to have that someone special in our life. Someone who will be there for us in our darkest hours. Someone to love and care for you. Someone to make you feel so special and important to them. But, most importantly, someone who will accept us for who we are.
Love is such a powerful word. Do we mean it? Do we feel it? Can we live without it? I don't know. I've had my share of heartache in the past. I must admit that I was ready to give up on love. But, for once in my life, I was wrong. I was given one more chance. I love this person with all my heart. I see them for who they are. Something about them has cast a spell on me and I can't get them out of my mind and heart. As cliche as that sounds, it's true. I just have to work and fight hard to be with that person, get them to notice me.
Sometimes in life, we're lost without that certain someone. We are always in hiding from ourselves, until that special someone finds the real you inside. We sometimes turn for someone and they're not there, but with that person by your side, they'll always will be. Sometimes we give and they take, we make that one big mistake by giving them all from A to Z, in which it will cost us our very own hearts. Sometimes love can be a powerful feeling and sometimes love can be the most hurtful feeling.
After being through several relationships, I've realized that in life, love can always make you stronger. No matter how painful, no matter how hurtful, no matter how dark the situation is, love can make you into a stronger person. I know we have to be careful to who we give our full hearts to. I know we have to rely on ourselves for when things seem out of hand. Just face it until the storm passes.
Sometimes in life, love can take us high and take us low. It can colour you blue and turn your passion to red, until you feel like you've become indigo. But, love has that feeling of pain and happiness. We just have to stay true to ourselves and be strong as much as possible. Don't let anything destroy what you believe in, because as I've said: karma is a bitch, what goes around, comes around.
If you truly love someone, who ever it is, don't give up on them. Don't let them slip through your fingers. Do everything that's possible to be with them. Do what they do; try to communicate with them and be who you are. You must be prepared to work and fight hard for the long road ahead. Don't ever give up, even if it means just being friends with that person, it will still be better than nothing. It will make you realize how grateful you are to have that person in your life. Just believe and stay true to yourself.
Jordan
Monday, 18 February 2008
A voice of an angel
The gift of song.
The voice of an angel.
Lisette Vares is her name.
It all began on July 4th, 2007, I was browsing through some artist profiles on myspace as I came across hers. I was puzzled at first. She was from Sweden, and yet her songs were in English. I began listening to her songs "Runaway", "Together We Lost" and "Dream Of Love". A cold chill ran down my spine. What was that? I asked myself. I suddenly realized it was the power of emotion from Lisette's songs. The emotion of passion. The emotion of love. The emotion of struggle. All combined in her songs. It was amazing.
As I began to browse through her profile, I suddenly caught a glimpse of something that shocked me:
"That was HER?!" I asked myself. I saw the photos. I was shocked that I came across one of the backing vocalists/dancers from my favourite performance/song in the ENTIRE contest! I instantly messaged her, congratulating her on the amazing performance and all the hard work she and the crew put together. After a day, I got a reply back. She thanked me on how sweet I was and for all the support and that it was a wonderful life-time experience, she had in Helsinki. She wished me luck with my singing and hoped to hear from me sometime.
After a while, we began talking. We began commenting each other. We began messaging each other. I realized how much of a wonderful; kind hearted; positive and grateful person she really was. It's real hard to find a true soul like that as a friend. She's been such a great friend to me. Her songs have always made me feel so great about myself. She's inspired me, through her songs and positive energy, to continue singing and to never give up on my dreams. Just believe in yourself and go for it.
I feel so grateful to have her support; to have her believe in me. It means so much to me. I always feel something in her songs. I feel the struggle she must have faced through the hard times. I feel the passion and love she has for music. It just combines as one and has cast a spell on me. It's the only music I've been listening to for the past 5 months! It's made me feel more alive and confident in myself. Whenever I'm depressed. I'd listen to her songs and everything goes away.
She's sent me all of her songs to my email, just for me. I listen to them every single day now. I'm practicing on one of her songs, "Stop This Hurting", during my singing lessons and while practicing at home. I feel so comfortable singing that. I can relate to her songs in everyway. It just surprises me, on how I came across her profile. I think it was fate for us to be friends. I think it was fate for me to listen to her songs. If it wasn't for Lisette and her music, I wouldn't have pushed myself to begin a singing career in progress. I thank her so much.
Lisette has recently released her promotional music video, "Surrender", the genre of the song is pop mixed with elements of dance. If you listen to the lyrics, they're just so reflective to a person's emotions. You can feel the emotion and passion through her voice. It's honestly one of a kind and unique. She looks so stunning and beautiful in this video, as always. I dedicate this entry to you Lisette. I'm honestly grateful. Thank you for everything. It means the world.
LISETTE VARES OFFICIAL MYSPACE
OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO "SURRDENDER"
Jordan
Sunday, 17 February 2008
I feel sorry for Zac...
I was on my internet homepage and I saw something about Jessica Alba trashing Zac Efron about the way he takes care of himself. Ok, first, let me clear some stuff up:
1) I'm not a FAN of Zac Efron.
2) I've NEVER seen his movies.
(except Hairspray cause I love the original)
3) I'm not one of those crazy OBSESSED teen-heart throbs.
4) I don't really CARE about his sexuality or personal life.
(he is who he is and does what he wants)
5) I don't really CLASSIFY him as a "celebrity".
(he's just someone who's turned a dream into a career)
6) I don't view him as a PIECE OF MEAT.
7) I don't GIVE a damn.
8) I have NOTHING against him.
Anyways, I know this is probably old news, but I just want to write something in this blog. I just want to say, who the hell made her the judge of the way people take care of themselves? Honestly? We were all born as INDIVIDUALS. We were all born with DIFFERENT skin colours. We grew up with different SEXUALITIES. We grew up with different INTERESTS. Above all it's what makes us in this world UNIQUE. We're all human. We're not perfect. What gives a person the right to judge someone and trash them? An arrogant dickhead, that's what.
I don't understand why people CAN'T accept others for who THEY are. What makes them so SPECIAL from the rest of us out there? NOTHING. It's completely overrated and predictable. I know he's been dealing with rumours about his sexuality, I know he's been through the supposed "break up" with Vanessa. How do I know? I've put up with people talking about it. Fun. Anyways, I know the media can be a total bitch sometimes. But, honestly, most people in the Entertainment Industry shouldn't be so ignorant. They should understand the situation and support each other. But, it's life, it's a bitch.
I'm just surprised how these people have had the strength and courage to deal with all the crap the media puts them through. I honestly give them credit for that. I salute you. All I can say is that Zac has a LOT of talent. He can sing. He can dance. He can act. I admire him for being where he is today. Honestly. I'm a singer in progress, as most of you have gathered from my 2nd blog, and I've finally got over that fear and pushed myself to take lessons. I just hope I'll have that big break and do it all for the right reasons.
As I was saying, I just hope to God, that he uses his talent as much as he can. Don't let it go to waste. Keep auditioning. Keep singing. Keep acting. Keep dancing. Just believe in yourself and be strong with what's ahead of you. Just live every moment without any regrets. Just don't do anything stupid which will ruin the rest of your life. If I could say this to him in person I would. I'm the type of person who sees a person for who they are; to see them happy; to see them with confidence and faith; to see them doing what they love. I'll always be there for a person no matter what's their status and be supportive of them.
I wouldn't mind being friends with Zac, because honestly, we all need friends that have a lot of positive energy and that has a great personality, that will leave you thankful. But, I know there's a 100+% chance that will never happen. Just because someone is a "celebrity" it's because they chose to build a career in that industry for their talent. Anyone can do it. It doesn't make us any different from them. We're all human. We're not perfect. We just succeed in something we believe and have faith in. It won't be easy. We all have to work and sacrifice. But, in the end, the results are going to be worth it.
I just want people to understand, that even if a person becomes something in life, doesn't matter what it is. I just hope they won't backstab or treat that person any less. Because karma is a bitch. What goes around, comes around. I hope most of you understand that, even though Zac Efron is VERY well-known now, he's still human like the rest of us. Sure, he has a career in front of the cameras, but he also has a normal personal life like us. We're all individuals. We're not perfect. I know a lot of people out there just love him about his looks, about his body, about wanting to get into his pants. All I can say is: are you that blind to look past that and see for what a person is for who they are?
I guess in today's generation, I will never know.
Jordan
2) I've NEVER seen his movies.
(except Hairspray cause I love the original)
3) I'm not one of those crazy OBSESSED teen-heart throbs.
4) I don't really CARE about his sexuality or personal life.
(he is who he is and does what he wants)
5) I don't really CLASSIFY him as a "celebrity".
(he's just someone who's turned a dream into a career)
6) I don't view him as a PIECE OF MEAT.
7) I don't GIVE a damn.
8) I have NOTHING against him.
Anyways, I know this is probably old news, but I just want to write something in this blog. I just want to say, who the hell made her the judge of the way people take care of themselves? Honestly? We were all born as INDIVIDUALS. We were all born with DIFFERENT skin colours. We grew up with different SEXUALITIES. We grew up with different INTERESTS. Above all it's what makes us in this world UNIQUE. We're all human. We're not perfect. What gives a person the right to judge someone and trash them? An arrogant dickhead, that's what.
I don't understand why people CAN'T accept others for who THEY are. What makes them so SPECIAL from the rest of us out there? NOTHING. It's completely overrated and predictable. I know he's been dealing with rumours about his sexuality, I know he's been through the supposed "break up" with Vanessa. How do I know? I've put up with people talking about it. Fun. Anyways, I know the media can be a total bitch sometimes. But, honestly, most people in the Entertainment Industry shouldn't be so ignorant. They should understand the situation and support each other. But, it's life, it's a bitch.
I'm just surprised how these people have had the strength and courage to deal with all the crap the media puts them through. I honestly give them credit for that. I salute you. All I can say is that Zac has a LOT of talent. He can sing. He can dance. He can act. I admire him for being where he is today. Honestly. I'm a singer in progress, as most of you have gathered from my 2nd blog, and I've finally got over that fear and pushed myself to take lessons. I just hope I'll have that big break and do it all for the right reasons.
As I was saying, I just hope to God, that he uses his talent as much as he can. Don't let it go to waste. Keep auditioning. Keep singing. Keep acting. Keep dancing. Just believe in yourself and be strong with what's ahead of you. Just live every moment without any regrets. Just don't do anything stupid which will ruin the rest of your life. If I could say this to him in person I would. I'm the type of person who sees a person for who they are; to see them happy; to see them with confidence and faith; to see them doing what they love. I'll always be there for a person no matter what's their status and be supportive of them.
I wouldn't mind being friends with Zac, because honestly, we all need friends that have a lot of positive energy and that has a great personality, that will leave you thankful. But, I know there's a 100+% chance that will never happen. Just because someone is a "celebrity" it's because they chose to build a career in that industry for their talent. Anyone can do it. It doesn't make us any different from them. We're all human. We're not perfect. We just succeed in something we believe and have faith in. It won't be easy. We all have to work and sacrifice. But, in the end, the results are going to be worth it.
I just want people to understand, that even if a person becomes something in life, doesn't matter what it is. I just hope they won't backstab or treat that person any less. Because karma is a bitch. What goes around, comes around. I hope most of you understand that, even though Zac Efron is VERY well-known now, he's still human like the rest of us. Sure, he has a career in front of the cameras, but he also has a normal personal life like us. We're all individuals. We're not perfect. I know a lot of people out there just love him about his looks, about his body, about wanting to get into his pants. All I can say is: are you that blind to look past that and see for what a person is for who they are?
I guess in today's generation, I will never know.
Jordan
La di da da da di da
"La di da da da di da" are probably the 6 little words people might recognise from a song that no one seems to remember. It was back in 2000, when French Affair released their debut song "My Heart Goes Boom". Mixed with up-tempo pop and elements of dance beats, the song has a catchy rhythm with lyrics that will be stuck in your head for hours, even days. It's one of those songs that you'd either hate or love. I love it.
I was surprised that it even came across my mind. I remember back in 2000, I always used to listen to this song a lot of times. I was on Youtube and, of course as most of us who are bored, I started to look up random crap. I was about to click onto a next video, when I saw on the list "My Heart Goes Boom", so knowing me, I clicked it. I was shocked. It was the song that I always used to listen to when I was 11 years old! A major flash back of me dancing around like a little hyper-active child. Ah, the good times.
I know, they've released a few other songs such as:
"You're So Sexy"
"Comme ci, Comme Ca"
"Poison"
But I prefer "My Heart Goes Boom", because nothing beats the original. Anyways to get to the point. For those who don't remember the song, or seem to have a slight memory of it. I've found it on Youtube and I'll be glad to share it with the rest of those. Well, those who come across my blog anyway.... HAH. Here it is.
I was surprised that it even came across my mind. I remember back in 2000, I always used to listen to this song a lot of times. I was on Youtube and, of course as most of us who are bored, I started to look up random crap. I was about to click onto a next video, when I saw on the list "My Heart Goes Boom", so knowing me, I clicked it. I was shocked. It was the song that I always used to listen to when I was 11 years old! A major flash back of me dancing around like a little hyper-active child. Ah, the good times.
I know, they've released a few other songs such as:
"Comme ci, Comme Ca"
"Poison"
But I prefer "My Heart Goes Boom", because nothing beats the original. Anyways to get to the point. For those who don't remember the song, or seem to have a slight memory of it. I've found it on Youtube and I'll be glad to share it with the rest of those. Well, those who come across my blog anyway.... HAH. Here it is.
Saturday, 16 February 2008
Do, Re, Mi, Fa, So, La, Ti
"Do, Re, Mi, Fa, So, La, Ti" are the 7 words people often use when we practice our low and high notes during our singing lessons. I just came back from my second singing lesson today. I've always been a great singer when I was young. Sadly, I gave it up when I was about 12 and I lost my voice amongst the hormones a teenager faces. After watching the Eurovision Song Contest in 2006, it inspired to return to my love for music and singing. At first I sounded like a frog being strangled and a cat scraping their paws on a black chalk board. Yes, I was THAT bad.
After 2 years of practicing singing at home without any lessons. I began to improve. Of course, I wasn't amazing. I was improving with my voice as it started to developed back into it's singing range. I wasn't horrible. I was just plain good. I just need improvement! I needed to learn the breathing techniques. I needed to learn to mix my high and low notes together. I needed to learn on the tone techniques. Of course, I did strain most of the time, in which my throat would become dry and sore. Ah the joys of an amateur.
About 3 months ago, I Googled singing teachers here in Sydney. I found a website that had all the available singing teachers in the city. And 2 weeks ago, I emailed them for an inquiry for having lessons and what I needed to be improved and a little biography about what I needed them to understand. After 24 hours, I got a friendly reply back from the owner of the website. He found the most available singer in my area. He lives 21 minute drive for my place and believe me, he's been a great help.
So, I had my first lesson on Saturday the 9th of February and Dave was a nice talented singer who was patient with me to open up. We had a few voice exercises so he could see what needed work on my voice. We sang several songs:
"Stop This Hurting" by Lisette Vares
"On Top Of The World" by Edsilia Rombley
and of course I had my flaws, because after 2 years of practicing at home WITHOUT any lessons relieved the tension as I slowly began to understand and learn the opening up techniques.
I have a friend who I've recently known from Myspace named "Stuart Guthrie", a VERY talented singer from Western Australia. He's helped me out a lot by giving me some tricks and some advice on making my breathing a bit more easier and to make sure I don't put any strain on my vocals by singing on the throat and by relaxing and trying to sing from the diaphragm. He's been a great help to me.
For the last 5 days, I've been practicing and practicing. I was taught the lip bubble technique. I was taught to make sure my shoulders don't rise when I breathe. It's VERY hard to control at first, but I'm starting to get the hang of it. I've had a few strains on my voice the first 2 days of singing, but the 3rd day of understanding some of the basic techniques and breathing had finally relieved the tension on my singing. I still have my flaws with the breathing and bringing my high and low notes together, but, hopefully, I will maintain the understanding and knowledge to learn it properly.
I'm just thankful that I have people helping me with my singing. I'm glad I finally made that email to book that teacher. It was worth it. My voice has finally started to slowly progress. I don't feel the tension in my throat from straining. I know it will take a while for me to fully developed my singing voice to the level that it will be perfection, but the results are going be worth the wait from practicing and lessons.
If anyone out there has any advice or suggestions. I'd definitely appreciate it. I love music. I love singing. My whole life is based around music. I just thank the Eurovision Song Contest for inspiring me to sing again. It's given me a whole new view on what I honestly want in my life. I'm doing this for all the right reasons. The whole point of me becoming a successful singer is so I can become the voice for those out there. I'll be practicing extremely hard this up-coming week.
Jordan
After 2 years of practicing singing at home without any lessons. I began to improve. Of course, I wasn't amazing. I was improving with my voice as it started to developed back into it's singing range. I wasn't horrible. I was just plain good. I just need improvement! I needed to learn the breathing techniques. I needed to learn to mix my high and low notes together. I needed to learn on the tone techniques. Of course, I did strain most of the time, in which my throat would become dry and sore. Ah the joys of an amateur.
About 3 months ago, I Googled singing teachers here in Sydney. I found a website that had all the available singing teachers in the city. And 2 weeks ago, I emailed them for an inquiry for having lessons and what I needed to be improved and a little biography about what I needed them to understand. After 24 hours, I got a friendly reply back from the owner of the website. He found the most available singer in my area. He lives 21 minute drive for my place and believe me, he's been a great help.
So, I had my first lesson on Saturday the 9th of February and Dave was a nice talented singer who was patient with me to open up. We had a few voice exercises so he could see what needed work on my voice. We sang several songs:
"On Top Of The World" by Edsilia Rombley
and of course I had my flaws, because after 2 years of practicing at home WITHOUT any lessons relieved the tension as I slowly began to understand and learn the opening up techniques.
I have a friend who I've recently known from Myspace named "Stuart Guthrie", a VERY talented singer from Western Australia. He's helped me out a lot by giving me some tricks and some advice on making my breathing a bit more easier and to make sure I don't put any strain on my vocals by singing on the throat and by relaxing and trying to sing from the diaphragm. He's been a great help to me.
For the last 5 days, I've been practicing and practicing. I was taught the lip bubble technique. I was taught to make sure my shoulders don't rise when I breathe. It's VERY hard to control at first, but I'm starting to get the hang of it. I've had a few strains on my voice the first 2 days of singing, but the 3rd day of understanding some of the basic techniques and breathing had finally relieved the tension on my singing. I still have my flaws with the breathing and bringing my high and low notes together, but, hopefully, I will maintain the understanding and knowledge to learn it properly.
I'm just thankful that I have people helping me with my singing. I'm glad I finally made that email to book that teacher. It was worth it. My voice has finally started to slowly progress. I don't feel the tension in my throat from straining. I know it will take a while for me to fully developed my singing voice to the level that it will be perfection, but the results are going be worth the wait from practicing and lessons.
If anyone out there has any advice or suggestions. I'd definitely appreciate it. I love music. I love singing. My whole life is based around music. I just thank the Eurovision Song Contest for inspiring me to sing again. It's given me a whole new view on what I honestly want in my life. I'm doing this for all the right reasons. The whole point of me becoming a successful singer is so I can become the voice for those out there. I'll be practicing extremely hard this up-coming week.
Jordan
The morning comes, The sun hides
It's 6:58 a.m. on Saturday and I'm awake. I'm surprised on how early I've gone to bed last night at around 11:10 p.m. and to wake up at around the early hours of the morning. Mind you, I'd always wake up around 3p.m. in the afternoon! I think it's a new change for me. I honestly need Dr. Phil's advice on this. It's a real turn in the next chapter of my life.
Anyways....
Introduction.... not that I really like introducing myself to people. I find it more of a mystery to not know the person without meeting them and just create a story about their life and just play out the possibilities if the person is either a serial killer on the run or just simply on the run after beating his own wife, because she didn't put enough pepper in the sauce. But, I don't want to get TOO carried away, leaving you wondering if I'm some crazy nut job from the sidewalk selling crack, so I'll just get to the point.
I'm Jordan.
I'm 18 years old.
I live in Sydney, Australia.
I can be loud and obnoxious sometimes.
(Arn't we all?)
I'm loving and caring.
I'm a singer in progress.
(Yes, that's right)
I don't like people.
I hate some more than others.
I speak my mind.
(Most people hate that)
I don't judge others.
(Yes, I'm human)
I accept people for who they are.
(Shocking, aye?)
I have faith in my dreams.
I believe in people's dreams.
I believe in what's "right".
I love meeting new people.
(Don't start me)
Now for the downside...
I hate people who criticize others.
(We're NOT perfect)
I hate people with TOO much pride.
(Get OVER yourself)
I hate people who are negative.
(Get a LIFE)
I hate people who DON'T accept others for who THEY are.
(What makes YOU so special?)
I hate people that judge you WITHOUT even knowing you.
I hate people who pretend to be your friend but backstab you.
(Bring IT on bitch!)
I hate people who think they CAN destroy you.
(Have you met MY mother?)
I hate people who think they're TOO good to be your friend.
(As I said: What makes YOU so special?)
Anywho...
Since you've finished reading the above "About Me".
You'll notice that I'm DIFFERENT.
But, hey!
It's ME.
It's who I am.
If you DON'T accept it.
Then, you CAN just go fuck yourself.
God Bless.
Moving on...
It's 7:56 a.m., as I've spent almost an hour trying to finish this first blog entry of mine. I keep getting distractions: Mum waking up and babbling about someone forgetting to lock the back door. My neighbour lawn mowing the garden at THIS time of the morning. Don't people have lives? What happened to the good old days, when people used to sleep until the early hours of the afternoon? Doesn't this world have NO shame?! Damn global warming! It's messing with our minds. Next thing you know, we'll be exercising *shudders at the thought*. Scary.
Anyways....
As I sit here, with my ocean-blue robe over my black racing car shirt and my blue Homer Simpson boxers, (yes, that's right, I wear boxers, BOXERS, not briefs) I begin to wonder if writing this entry was worth it. I'm sure most of you have probably wasted a good 3-5 minutes of your so called "NORMAL" lives reading this. But, I think it's probably best to write down the non-stop dribble your mind plays repeatedly in your head. After all, we're all human right? We all have needs. We all have raging hormones (sure mine get mad at each other and stop talking to one another). We all have different styles. We have obliviated views upon the world. But most importantly. We have unique blogs.
I shall continue later.
Jordan
Anyways....
Introduction.... not that I really like introducing myself to people. I find it more of a mystery to not know the person without meeting them and just create a story about their life and just play out the possibilities if the person is either a serial killer on the run or just simply on the run after beating his own wife, because she didn't put enough pepper in the sauce. But, I don't want to get TOO carried away, leaving you wondering if I'm some crazy nut job from the sidewalk selling crack, so I'll just get to the point.
I'm 18 years old.
I live in Sydney, Australia.
I can be loud and obnoxious sometimes.
(Arn't we all?)
I'm loving and caring.
I'm a singer in progress.
(Yes, that's right)
I don't like people.
I hate some more than others.
I speak my mind.
(Most people hate that)
I don't judge others.
(Yes, I'm human)
I accept people for who they are.
(Shocking, aye?)
I have faith in my dreams.
I believe in people's dreams.
I believe in what's "right".
I love meeting new people.
(Don't start me)
Now for the downside...
(We're NOT perfect)
I hate people with TOO much pride.
(Get OVER yourself)
I hate people who are negative.
(Get a LIFE)
I hate people who DON'T accept others for who THEY are.
(What makes YOU so special?)
I hate people that judge you WITHOUT even knowing you.
I hate people who pretend to be your friend but backstab you.
(Bring IT on bitch!)
I hate people who think they CAN destroy you.
(Have you met MY mother?)
I hate people who think they're TOO good to be your friend.
(As I said: What makes YOU so special?)
Anywho...
You'll notice that I'm DIFFERENT.
But, hey!
It's ME.
It's who I am.
If you DON'T accept it.
Then, you CAN just go fuck yourself.
God Bless.
Moving on...
It's 7:56 a.m., as I've spent almost an hour trying to finish this first blog entry of mine. I keep getting distractions: Mum waking up and babbling about someone forgetting to lock the back door. My neighbour lawn mowing the garden at THIS time of the morning. Don't people have lives? What happened to the good old days, when people used to sleep until the early hours of the afternoon? Doesn't this world have NO shame?! Damn global warming! It's messing with our minds. Next thing you know, we'll be exercising *shudders at the thought*. Scary.
Anyways....
As I sit here, with my ocean-blue robe over my black racing car shirt and my blue Homer Simpson boxers, (yes, that's right, I wear boxers, BOXERS, not briefs) I begin to wonder if writing this entry was worth it. I'm sure most of you have probably wasted a good 3-5 minutes of your so called "NORMAL" lives reading this. But, I think it's probably best to write down the non-stop dribble your mind plays repeatedly in your head. After all, we're all human right? We all have needs. We all have raging hormones (sure mine get mad at each other and stop talking to one another). We all have different styles. We have obliviated views upon the world. But most importantly. We have unique blogs.
I shall continue later.
Jordan
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