Why "Vertigo" means a lot to me

As a majority of you know,

I'm passionate and obsessed with the song "Vertigo". It was written by Gerard James Borg and sung by Olivia Lewis. Not only am I obsessed with the artistic oriental asian performance. I'm also passionate about the lyrics. I feel as though they were written just for me. I can definitely relate to them very well.


You're spinnin' me round and you're holdin' me down
Lovin' you gives me vertigo
I'm losin' my ground, givin' in to your heart
Kissin' you gives me vertigo

And I'm lost, then I'm found
And I run, then I hide
And I turn, you're not there
I say yes, you say no
Lovin' you gives me vertigo

And I give, but you take
I made one big mistake
Gave you all, A to Z
Then you came, now you go
Lovin' you gives me vertigo

You're liftin' me high, then you're takin' me low
It's feelin' like I'm getting vertigo
You colour me blue, turn my passion to red
It's feelin' like I've become indigo

And I give, but you take
I made one big mistake
Gave you all, A to Z
Then you came, now you go
Lovin' you gives me vertigo

Am I crazy? Could it be maybe
Solo is the way to go?

And I'm lost, then I'm found
And I run, then I hide
And I turn, you're not there
I say yes, you say no
Lovin' you gives me vertigo

And I give, but you take
I made one big mistake
Gave you all, A to Z
Then you came, now you go
Lovin' you gives me vertigo



Here's my theory based on the lyrics.
This is the real reason why it means so much to me.



Sometimes when you're in love; it holds you down. You lose yourself by giving into your lovers heart. When you passionately kiss them; it's the greatest feeling.

As you begin a life on your own; you intend on losing ourself. But with that person by your side; they will find your inner self. You run from the truth and hide from your real self. Sometimes you turn for someone; but they're not there.

You always give and give, but they take advantage of you. You make that one biggest mistake by giving them all A to Z.

A relationship can lift you high and then take you low. That person can colour you blue and turn your passion to red. It'll feel as though you've become indigo: mixed up.

All those who are in a relationship; begin to wonder...

"Am I crazy? Could it be maybe, solo is the way to go?"

That question will always wonder through your mind.

I must admit that I've experienced bad relationships in the past. And this song describes the situation so well. I'm sure a lot of people feel the same way.

Sometimes we should take the chance IF the opportunity comes. You just hope someone proves to you that being in a relationship is worth it.

I guess you'll never know what to expect.



Jordan.A

Who can I trust?

I just don't know who to trust anymore.

I'm just afraid of giving out my full trust to people and fucked up again. I've been stupid and blind enough to give it to them and in the end I paid the price. I just don't think I can get close to people like I used to. I know we all have to take chances in our life... but at the moment... I just don't know. It's very complicated and I just have thinking about it.

I'm afraid of going into another relationship with someone; because I know I'll end up at square one again. I don't know if that person is cheating on me behind my back. I don't know if they really love me. I don't know if they respect me for who I am. I don't know if they'll get bored of me. It's these kind of things that make me afraid of being with someone.

I hate going to bed alone. I just want someone who will always love me. Someone who I can grow old with. Someone I can always laugh and cry with. Someone I can turn to cry on their shoulder. Someone who will protect me. Someone who will accept and respect me for who I am. Someone to cuddle with during the night. Someone to make me part of their world.

I hope someone can prove me wrong. I just don't know what to expect anymore. I don't know what to believe in. I just don't know who I can trust these days.

I guess with this generation I'll never know.


Jordan.A

Could solo be the way to go?

"Am I crazy? Could it be maybe? Solo is the way to go?" is the question on most of people's minds. We all dream of a life that our Prince or Princess Charming will come and sweep us off our feet and live a Fairy Tale life. But, that life comes at a price: heartache.

I don't like being negative about love, but this is something that most people question and wonder about the reasons. We all want to have that someone special in our life. Someone who will be there for us in our darkest hours. Someone to love and care for you. Someone to make you feel so special and important to them. But, most importantly, someone who will accept us for who we are.

Love is such a powerful word. Do we mean it? Do we feel it? Can we live without it? I don't know. I've had my share of heartache in the past. I must admit that I was ready to give up on love. But, for once in my life, I was wrong. I was given one more chance. I love this person with all my heart. I see them for who they are. Something about them has cast a spell on me and I can't get them out of my mind and heart. As cliche as that sounds, it's true. I just have to work and fight hard to be with that person, get them to notice me.

Sometimes in life, we're lost without that certain someone. We are always in hiding from ourselves, until that special someone finds the real you inside. We sometimes turn for someone and they're not there, but with that person by your side, they'll always will be. Sometimes we give and they take, we make that one big mistake by giving them all from A to Z, in which it will cost us our very own hearts. Sometimes love can be a powerful feeling and sometimes love can be the most hurtful feeling.

After being through several relationships, I've realized that in life, love can always make you stronger. No matter how painful, no matter how hurtful, no matter how dark the situation is, love can make you into a stronger person. I know we have to be careful to who we give our full hearts to. I know we have to rely on ourselves for when things seem out of hand. Just face it until the storm passes.

Sometimes in life, love can take us high and take us low. It can colour you blue and turn your passion to red, until you feel like you've become indigo. But, love has that feeling of pain and happiness. We just have to stay true to ourselves and be strong as much as possible. Don't let anything destroy what you believe in, because as I've said: karma is a bitch, what goes around, comes around.

If you truly love someone, who ever it is, don't give up on them. Don't let them slip through your fingers. Do everything that's possible to be with them. Do what they do; try to communicate with them and be who you are. You must be prepared to work and fight hard for the long road ahead. Don't ever give up, even if it means just being friends with that person, it will still be better than nothing. It will make you realize how grateful you are to have that person in your life. Just believe and stay true to yourself.


Jordan