Don't wait until it's too late

I've been thinking about a lot of things lately.

I've seen a lot of people in love and I'm real happy for them.
I've seen their passion and the connection they have with each other.
I've seen the warmth feeling and the strong love they feel for each other.
It's the most precious thing in the entire world.
I know without love; there's nothing.
I know without your soul mate; there's nothing.

In life we face a lot of trials and hard choices.
We do things that we regret doing.
We do things that we're not proud of.
We wish we could turn back time and change the past.

I guess we all have to move forward with our life.
We should never look back on what might have been.
We should just look to what's in front of us and work on it.
We should always believe in ourselves and try our best.
We should never let anyone bring us down.
We should always be who we are and never change.

I know there's a lot of people who are in love with a certain someone.
They're afraid of telling that person how they feel.
They're afraid of getting hurt if it doesn't turn out the way they hoped for.
You should always listen to your heart.
Don't spend the rest of your life waiting for it to happen.
Don't spend the rest of your life wondering what could have been.
No matter what happens in life... we should always have courage to admit our feelings.

If you truly love someone... who ever it is.
Don't wait until the last minute.
Life gives and takes away.
Any of us could die any minute or day.
We should always make each day count and live life to the fullest.
Don't spend the rest of your life wondering what could have been if you didn't tell that person how you felt.
We should be thankful for every second we live on this earth.

If you truly love someone... who ever it is.
Please tell them how you feel about them.
Don't wait until it's too late.

We don't want to regret never telling them.

You don't want to spend the rest of your life wondering what could have been.



Jordan.A

Why "Vertigo" means a lot to me

As a majority of you know,

I'm passionate and obsessed with the song "Vertigo". It was written by Gerard James Borg and sung by Olivia Lewis. Not only am I obsessed with the artistic oriental asian performance. I'm also passionate about the lyrics. I feel as though they were written just for me. I can definitely relate to them very well.


You're spinnin' me round and you're holdin' me down
Lovin' you gives me vertigo
I'm losin' my ground, givin' in to your heart
Kissin' you gives me vertigo

And I'm lost, then I'm found
And I run, then I hide
And I turn, you're not there
I say yes, you say no
Lovin' you gives me vertigo

And I give, but you take
I made one big mistake
Gave you all, A to Z
Then you came, now you go
Lovin' you gives me vertigo

You're liftin' me high, then you're takin' me low
It's feelin' like I'm getting vertigo
You colour me blue, turn my passion to red
It's feelin' like I've become indigo

And I give, but you take
I made one big mistake
Gave you all, A to Z
Then you came, now you go
Lovin' you gives me vertigo

Am I crazy? Could it be maybe
Solo is the way to go?

And I'm lost, then I'm found
And I run, then I hide
And I turn, you're not there
I say yes, you say no
Lovin' you gives me vertigo

And I give, but you take
I made one big mistake
Gave you all, A to Z
Then you came, now you go
Lovin' you gives me vertigo



Here's my theory based on the lyrics.
This is the real reason why it means so much to me.



Sometimes when you're in love; it holds you down. You lose yourself by giving into your lovers heart. When you passionately kiss them; it's the greatest feeling.

As you begin a life on your own; you intend on losing ourself. But with that person by your side; they will find your inner self. You run from the truth and hide from your real self. Sometimes you turn for someone; but they're not there.

You always give and give, but they take advantage of you. You make that one biggest mistake by giving them all A to Z.

A relationship can lift you high and then take you low. That person can colour you blue and turn your passion to red. It'll feel as though you've become indigo: mixed up.

All those who are in a relationship; begin to wonder...

"Am I crazy? Could it be maybe, solo is the way to go?"

That question will always wonder through your mind.

I must admit that I've experienced bad relationships in the past. And this song describes the situation so well. I'm sure a lot of people feel the same way.

Sometimes we should take the chance IF the opportunity comes. You just hope someone proves to you that being in a relationship is worth it.

I guess you'll never know what to expect.



Jordan.A

Who can I trust?

I just don't know who to trust anymore.

I'm just afraid of giving out my full trust to people and fucked up again. I've been stupid and blind enough to give it to them and in the end I paid the price. I just don't think I can get close to people like I used to. I know we all have to take chances in our life... but at the moment... I just don't know. It's very complicated and I just have thinking about it.

I'm afraid of going into another relationship with someone; because I know I'll end up at square one again. I don't know if that person is cheating on me behind my back. I don't know if they really love me. I don't know if they respect me for who I am. I don't know if they'll get bored of me. It's these kind of things that make me afraid of being with someone.

I hate going to bed alone. I just want someone who will always love me. Someone who I can grow old with. Someone I can always laugh and cry with. Someone I can turn to cry on their shoulder. Someone who will protect me. Someone who will accept and respect me for who I am. Someone to cuddle with during the night. Someone to make me part of their world.

I hope someone can prove me wrong. I just don't know what to expect anymore. I don't know what to believe in. I just don't know who I can trust these days.

I guess with this generation I'll never know.


Jordan.A

Sometimes

sometimes in life we wish for something we can't have.
sometimes in life that certain something is worth fighting for.
sometimes in life we can get that certain something.
sometimes in life that certain something will leave you wondering:
what could have been if you didn't fight for it.

When you believe...

What do we believe in? What do we pray for? What do we have faith in? What do we hope for? It's what our hearts drives us crazy by. We pray for success. We have faith in love. We believe in ourselves. We hope to find someone to make us happy. We want that special certain someone in our life that will take away all the pain from the inside. We pray to build our dreams into reality. We hope to live a peaceful life. We have to have faith in ourselves if we just believe.

Sometimes, hope can be frail, it's hard to believe. We pray and pray each night, in hope that someone, above us, around us, would hear. We begin to lose hope, when everything arounds us, seems to fall apart. We should never be afraid of what life throws at us. Although, deep down, we're afraid of our true selves. We never know what miracles we can achieve if we believe. We just have to have faith. We have to believe in ourselves and go out there to begin a new life.

I've realized so much these past few weeks: I've given up on so much in the past. I've lost hope in myself. I've lost confidence. I never believed I could achieve in life. But, now, I'm slowly starting to improve on my singing. I've prayed and wished to be helped... and I have. I've been taking singing lessons. I've been practicing at home. I've got people offering to help me, to help me slowly achieve the dream, I want so much to turn into reality.

When we believe, we believe in ourselves, we believe in our dreams, we believe in God, we believe in the love we have for one another. I've realized that we were put onto this world for a reason: to see what path we choose; to become unique in every individual way; to follow our dreams and accomplish our destiny. We just have to make that first big step and move forward. Whatever happens in life, no matter what demons we face, we have to keep moving forward. We have to keep the ball rolling, because an angel will shine through to the end.

Who knows what miracles can be accomplished if we believe in what's right. If we do it for all the right reasons. If we do it for what we love. If we do it for our dreams. It will show better results in the end. Never let ANYONE come between you and your dream. Don't let them destroy what you've been praying for. No matter what happens in life, we have to keep moving forward, we can't look back behind us, into the past, we have to keep looking forward. Our destiny awaits us.

It's easy to give into your fears. We can be blinded by our pain and grief. Sometimes we can't see straight through the rain. Sometimes we have to start small, or with nothing, to get where we dream of being in life:

Singing
Acting
Dancing
Modelling
Cooking
Carpenter
Construction Worker
Lawyer
Doctor
ANYTHING

We all have to make certain sacrifces for what we want. We all have to keep our helds high and face it through the storm. Don't let the waves of destruction crash into you. Hope will always be there for you. God will always be there for you. Believe in yourself. Pray. Hope. Have faith and anything would be accomplished if you set your heart and mind to it.

As life begins to take it's darkened toll, we have to fight and work as hard as possible for what we want; for who we want. Sometimes love can be painful without having that person by your side. Never give up hope. Go out there and get them. Get them to notice you. Capture their hearts. And even if you just remain as friends... it will be better than nothing, because to realize that you have this person in your life, will make you stronger and happier.

Anything is possible if you believe....


Jordan

20 1/2 Months...?

As I sit here, in front of the computer, typing this up, I begin to wonder about the day I leave for overseas. I've been planning about this for a very long time. I've just never took up the courage and actually take action, for once. I've set the date for 20 1/2 months to prepare myself for the move to Toronto, Canada, God willing. I guess you're wondering: what is he babbling about?

I'll tell you...

On January 28th, 2008, I've decided that enough was enough. I was sick and tired of hiding in my shell and not taking action for what I believed in. I've always had an interest in the Entertainment Industry. I loved it. I've always wanted to be a successful singer for all the right reasons. I just never took any action about it. But, I have. As I've pointed out in my 2nd blog:


Do, Re, Mi, Fa, So, La, Ti

It's what I really want to do.

I've realized something: if you want something real bad in life, you have to be prepared to fight and work extremely hard for it. No matter what we sacrifice in life, the results will be worth it. If we want to achieve something in life, no matter what it is, we just have to believe in ourself and have faith by doing it for all the right reasons. Sometimes, in order to get what we want, we have to leave the nest and spread our wings. We have to leave our old life behind and begin the new, but always staying true to what's important: yourself.

It's not going to be easy. It's going to take time. It's going to take strength and courage. It's going to take a lot of hard work and sacrifices to get to where we want in life. I've applied for 2 jobs so far, I'm just waiting for them to reply back. I'll be saving up as much as I can. Get as many shifts as possible and prepare to work my ass off like a whore on crack! I'll be applying for an American/Canadian VISA, thank god I have a clean record. Oh, I forgot, I'll be living in Toronto for a few months, until I get on my feet, and when everything is going according to plan, with me slowly getting somewhere, I'll be moving to Los Angeles, California.

I'll be practicing my singing, I'll try working on the techniques to improve, I'll try taking more lessons each day. I just need this to work. I have a good voice, I'm not amazing or horrible, I'm just good. I just need to work on my breathing/tone techniques. If I want this to happen, I've got to take action. Once my voice has improved, to the level that's satisfying, I'll record a few demos and open a music Myspace and a musician Youtube account. I won't leave Sydney, just yet. I'll give Australia a shot first. If nothing happens for me here, I'll move overseas.

I know, once I'm there, I'll need to find an apartment, I'll need to find a job. I need to work as much as I can, until I can get on my feet. I know it won't be easy. It's a whole new world out there. It will take time for me to adjust to it. I just need to have faith and be strong with this. It's what I really want. It's what I believe in. I know it won't be easy, but I just need to make this work. I need to make this happen. I need to turn this dream into reality.

I believe in God. I know that he will guide me to what's right. I know he will be there for me when I need him. I know that he will help me through this. I just need the strength and courage to work through this. I just need the support from all my family and friends. I don't care if no one supports me. I don't care if I just have a backpack and my ipod and all my savings to begin a new life overseas. Sacrifices need to be made in order to full-fill your dreams.

I never graduated from High School, because I left halfway through 2006. If I stayed at that school I would have not been here today. That's how bad it was for me there. I remember, while I was at school, I've always felt that I didn't belong. It never felt right for me. It wasn't what I was looking for in life. I'm not saying that everyone should leave school, education is very important to most of us. I just left because I had enough of all the crap and that I wanted to explore the world and figure out what I want in life. And now I have.

People have asked me, "why do you want to become a singer?", and here is my reason: I want to be the voice for those out there. I want to speak for them. I want to show them that there is more to life than ending it. I want them to follow their dreams, even when everything around you seems to fall apart, there's always hope. There's always a rainbow smiling through in the end. I want to show them no matter how much your heart is grieving and if you keep believing, the dream will come true.

I'm also going to fight for the person I'm deeply in love with. I'm not going to mention their name. But, I'm going to fight for that person. I just have to get them to notice me first. My feelings towards this person is different from the way the rest of the world views them. I don't care about their looks. I don't care about their body. I don't care about their status. I care about them for who they are and not what they are. I love that person so much. It's not lust. I know for sure it's not.

I just hope it's not too late. But, knowing what I know now: that person won't risk their career for a long time. I know that having this person in my life will make me the most happiest of all. I've realized why my previous relationships never worked out: because, someone out there was the one I was meant to be with. I just have to work and fight hard to be with them. It's like the story of Cinderella. She didn't sit around and wait for her Prince Charming. She went there to get him herself. She didn't need her Fairy Godmother's help. She just believed in herself and it came true. That's what I'm doing.

I don't really fall for people like this, but each time I look into their eyes I always see the saddness. And when they smile, their entire face lights up. I really do love this person so much. I consider them still human. They're just someone who turned their dream into a career. I admire them for it. I just hope soon enough that I will build a successful career as a singer. I might take up acting as well, never know. I really do believe in this. I really do want this. I just need the support of friends and family to help me through this. I just have to make it happen.

Sometimes in life, there's no time to lose. You got to catch your dreams, before they runaway. I just feel like running away, before I lose my mind. I just feel like leaving it all behind. I just need to set myself free and live my dream. I've realized that some people never take the time to try, but in reality: we all have to believe in ourselves and go for it. We have to remember, that the soul of life is just a song and everything goes on along. There's no right beat. We should never look back. We should just keep looking forward and catch and fulfill our dreams.

This comes to the conclusion. I'd like to thank you all for reading through this. I just hope you'll understand that this is what I truly want. It's what I believe in. I know I have to work extremely hard to get the career I want. I know I have to fight extremely hard to get this person to notice me and see how things go from there. I just have to make this happen. I just have to.

20 1/2 months to go...?


Jordan

Could solo be the way to go?

"Am I crazy? Could it be maybe? Solo is the way to go?" is the question on most of people's minds. We all dream of a life that our Prince or Princess Charming will come and sweep us off our feet and live a Fairy Tale life. But, that life comes at a price: heartache.

I don't like being negative about love, but this is something that most people question and wonder about the reasons. We all want to have that someone special in our life. Someone who will be there for us in our darkest hours. Someone to love and care for you. Someone to make you feel so special and important to them. But, most importantly, someone who will accept us for who we are.

Love is such a powerful word. Do we mean it? Do we feel it? Can we live without it? I don't know. I've had my share of heartache in the past. I must admit that I was ready to give up on love. But, for once in my life, I was wrong. I was given one more chance. I love this person with all my heart. I see them for who they are. Something about them has cast a spell on me and I can't get them out of my mind and heart. As cliche as that sounds, it's true. I just have to work and fight hard to be with that person, get them to notice me.

Sometimes in life, we're lost without that certain someone. We are always in hiding from ourselves, until that special someone finds the real you inside. We sometimes turn for someone and they're not there, but with that person by your side, they'll always will be. Sometimes we give and they take, we make that one big mistake by giving them all from A to Z, in which it will cost us our very own hearts. Sometimes love can be a powerful feeling and sometimes love can be the most hurtful feeling.

After being through several relationships, I've realized that in life, love can always make you stronger. No matter how painful, no matter how hurtful, no matter how dark the situation is, love can make you into a stronger person. I know we have to be careful to who we give our full hearts to. I know we have to rely on ourselves for when things seem out of hand. Just face it until the storm passes.

Sometimes in life, love can take us high and take us low. It can colour you blue and turn your passion to red, until you feel like you've become indigo. But, love has that feeling of pain and happiness. We just have to stay true to ourselves and be strong as much as possible. Don't let anything destroy what you believe in, because as I've said: karma is a bitch, what goes around, comes around.

If you truly love someone, who ever it is, don't give up on them. Don't let them slip through your fingers. Do everything that's possible to be with them. Do what they do; try to communicate with them and be who you are. You must be prepared to work and fight hard for the long road ahead. Don't ever give up, even if it means just being friends with that person, it will still be better than nothing. It will make you realize how grateful you are to have that person in your life. Just believe and stay true to yourself.


Jordan